Waiting

I'm not very good at waiting. In fact, let me go ahead and state the obvious (or obvious at least to those who know me best).......I am not a patient person! I don't do waiting well. I am very much a "make a decision and get on with it" kind of person. If you have ever done any study of personality types using the DISC model, you will recognize that there is a lot of "D" in me.....get to the point, don't waste my time, like to be in control, not particularly patient. And that part of my personality is having a really hard time right now!

Having accepted the advice of my orthopedist that I need ankle surgery and having accepted his recommendation to see a foot and ankle specialist about that surgery, I now find myself in the position of having to WAIT until mid-November for an appointment with that specialist. It's making me nuts!! I'm ready to get this done!! Part of the waiting is knowing what's coming and dreading it......and all the mind games I play with myself about that. Part of the problem is trying to anticipate how a doctor I have never yet met will think, anticipate what he will say, anticipate the scheduling process.....particularly with holidays coming. And certainly part of the problem is that I am really tired of living with this pain and would just like to have the problem fixed!

On the other hand, it must be said that I am learning some really valuable lessons about waiting, and about Who is in control! I'm being reminded over and over that this is part of the "all things" that are working together for my good (Romans 8:28). And while I still don't like waiting, I hope that I am learning to let go, to yield control, and to recognize that, in every circumstance of life......both good and not so good......God has a plan and a purpose and "He has made everything beautiful IN HIS TIME." (Ecclesiastes 3:11)